Is it marriage or am I plain lazy?

For a while now I have noticed that my tempers have left me completely, logic tends to hide away and general humour and politeness have abandoned all hope of ever reconciling with Kanika again. I actually pity my husband for he is going through the worst phase of his life...a monster of a wife and as much as I abhor these changes, all I am doing is sit and gossip about it.

He assures me it is not all that bad!!!! (What a darling...all husbands lie to their wives!) But I know it is. For I am sick and tired of sitting around and brooding about my condition. Not to mention....I would be doing that for I have no idea how many months. And as easily as I can put the blame on my husband for my condition...I would not. For it is my responsibility as well. Why should boys be blamed for everything? (My heart really goes out to all the men going through the woes of matrimony etc!) Getting back.......I was talking about this horrendous creature I have turned into.........didn't realize that I paid so much attention to my own freedom to actually get so bogged down!
What with the baby and all........Oh I guess I did not mention the best part.......Very soon Prashant and I would be blessed by an angel...and that little bundle, tumbling away in all his/her sleep has been a reason for my so called trip to monsterland! You can't honestly blame the woman you know....For years I have done what I wanted to do......and now I have people telling me what all I should and should not be doing.
Ofcourse, they all mean well..........yet it gets on to you! Whoever said pregnancy was a joyous moment of a woman's life surely did not suffer from any morning sickness, mood swings, cramped legs and a general feeling of living in someone else's body.

Imagine a mother to be and already cribbing.......of course I am happy. It is to a certain extent an awesome feeling........the responsibility bogs you down.......it's a life...a steadily beating heart...its a big deal. And when you start getting used to the kicks and all...kinda cute! To acknowledge that someone is safely hidden in the depths of your womb, growing with every passing second...that unimaginable feeling of miracle in the making...one can not truly express!


The thing is, for the first time a woman starts to understand her power...the immense power to create, grow, sustain and protect life itself! And that feeling...that only you can do that makes you feel truly special. And you realize why God gave you this special gift...man would not do too good at it...for with this power, a woman feels the utter vulnerability of her situation and that keeps her humble...a man...he would have been so confused! But that's God's way. He gave both their own strengths and weaknesses...and puts all of us through various trials and tribulations to make our lives worthwhile.

This post was just a self expression...few thoughts...am feeling so much better now!